I miss my veins 'cause they've collapsed

On a long enough Time line..

the survival rate for everyone drops to zero..

These words i type on this screen can't speak but if they had a voice you'd know there was alot left unsaid.The meaning of everything is deeper then what we suspect.The meaning of myself is so far it takes alot to grasp.I'm a human being.I love music and art and i want to be involved with it for the rest of my life.I'm as deeply connected with myself as i can be and sometimes i can disconnect because my state of mind is on over load.I think alot and whatever i think about sometimes grows hands and grasps them tightly around my eyes.Pulling me into some other state of sanity.I need no proof to go on with life nor death.I'm here to live i have organs and i have senses.I take myself to wherever im lead.I hold onto memories as something dear because as they build up they build me up as well.I have emotions and they can scatter around but they fall right back into place when needed.I'm balanced but sometimes the scales in my mind weigh more towards a different side.I'm here to live and I'm here to die.Suspect anything else.Then your suspecting more then needed.As soon as i write "End" It's just a whole other beginning..-End-


I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding in.